The little things, the little blips along life... often over looked, often ignored, can really be so significant. This is precisely why I pay attention to the little things the most. The little things can give you away, can show what someone really feels, or make the difference between perfection and mediocrity.
The past few weeks has been interesting to say the least. A series of small events, little blips, has resulted in great changes in my life. I see the world differently now. I've grown a lot more.
It should be no secret now, that I've met the most interesting girl I've ever come across in person. She was different, from a world that was foreign to me, spontaneous, shy, beautiful, dangerous, adorable, a mixture of good and bad... carefully exhibited at just the right moments. Then, there was me. The typical nice guy. Gullible, naive, always too prompt to offer help, hoping for the very best... still clinging onto the idea that there was justice in this world... even though I'm well aware the world is anything but fair. I had many dreams for her and me. But, in the end, it was the same thing... from every girl I've had. Lies, lies, lies, mixed actions, serious moments that I didn't want to have... etc. I forgive a lot. Just not lies.
For a brief period of time, she was my everything. She changed me. I became different around her. I became... better. So as short as our encounter was, I'm grateful. I anticipate we'll go our separate ways now. I'll do well I'm sure. I hope she will too.
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Things are returning to normal. I'm back on my work out schedule, I'm reading again, I'm focusing myself at work once again and loving it. I've found a good place for me to break at the University. I've selected a concept for a marketable product. I figure that establishing myself should be my number one priority right now. Since only then can I take care of those I love.
A small but memorable blip in my life. Getting back to work, since I cannot afford to waste anymore time. Living for the moment like her was great for a while, but I have a future that I need to create.
I'm going to miss her a lot. But I'm happy with the choice she made, since I can't take care of her right now.
Track: Owl City - The Saltwater Room
