ahhhhhhhhhhh

Studying sucks. Really really sucks.
Why couldn't I just have photographic memory?

I'd do so much with photographic memory.
Like I'd never need to re-open a textbook again.
Or forget another person's name.
And I could serve as the perfect witness on trials!

Wait, all of a sudden it doesn't sound so glamorous anymore.
It doesn't take that much effort to re-open a book or remember a person's name.

Nevermind!

Storm

I'll be honest about this, because there's no shame in revealing it.
A storm is brewing just off in the distance, and I will have to deal with it soon.
I am concerned, nervous but excited.

Concerned that I might waver in my confidence.
Nervous in that I might fail where I cannot afford to.
Excited in knowing that success means everything.

I don't want to face this alone though, because I've seen the power of having others
carrying the burden together and pulling the other across the finish.

So I'm looking really hard for that someone.
Who feels the drive like me or more.
Who burns with excitement and energy.

But then I realized that everyone is searching...
for something that very few will find.

Our Arenas.

It's imperative that we realize the value of even the most intangible of items.
Recognize the fragility of our existence; the thread which holds our assertions true.
Only through this can we perceive the world correctly
with meekness, humility, and appreciation.

At times it feels like there is so much we must carry.
The burdens that comes with age and circumstances.
We all fight our battles, our own arenas.
We all face the monsters that haunt our nightmares and threaten our dreams.

It doesn't matter how we appear on the surface.
Confident or doubtful, showing joy or anguish;
We're all warriors here, courageous as needed for our battles, wise from our previous experiences.

We're never truly alone, yet never fully understood.
All these contradictions that make up life.
How does it work?
How does it all equate?

Perhaps we are all pursuing the solutions in some form or another,
In which case, never embark on this journey alone.

Because perhaps it takes a contradiction to answer one.
A personal question, answered by the efforts of many.

hm.

Maybe I should stay back a term. Take more classes, get that management science option patched onto my paper. Learn a little more, do a little more around school.

It'll give me more time to develop my product, allow me to have more time to troubleshoot before bringing it to market. Or at least try to open more doors in my life. Perhaps one will be so suitable, I won't hesitate like I am now.

I can still do my gmat... I can still be around my friends... I can still help out with my family business.

This option needs more thought.